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Jamtland, Sweden
I left everything behind: my country, friends, my lovely son and my dog. I fell in love and got married to a Swedish man. Now I'm in the middle of Sweden and that is what I think and feel. Everything I trust to my blog.

Friday 24 September 2010

I read Shashtyn Eckman's "Blackwater". Really Swedish spirit. I wish I could read it in Swedish.
My practice is over now. The only week that is left will be filled with parting words and probably parting pie. I have already taken my books and my files were deleted from the computer. Nothing left except people who will remember me for some time. And I remember them: Maj, that was so well-balanced and timid, never personal, always diplomatic and creative, with kind look and mild manner of speaking - perfect characteristic for a teacher; Stenis - always strict and demanding, in alert, never close to you, at the distance that gives the opportunity to see the whole picture clearer - a businessman on the whole; Margareta, whom I see as a perfect woman, elegant and charming despite of her age, the woman with kind eyes, wise and strict, weighing every word so that sometimes it feels like she has a calculator in her mind but still she is veeery kind and encouraging; Eva, that is so emotional and cheerful, Karl-Johan, a young and experienced man, so kind, sociable, sensitive, amicable and the best friend for me, my roommate; Lotta - a woman, who feels the whole room with her aura when she comes in; Gunilla with her questions and talks about eternal, universal and indefinite; Joran, a nice curious man, very easy to be attracted by women and also a very kind person; Janne, young intellectual, promissing scientist and capable teacher, charming personality.... many others. I love them all. They are one well-balanced body of the school where I worked once.

Friday 3 September 2010

People supposed to trust each other. Don't you think so? Especially if they live together as a husband and wife. Here in Sweden I discovered that people haven't got trust. Yes, they have a unique trait - integrity, but no trust in the family relations. They stay for a while until they have feeling to stay together, but not up to the end of their lives. They don't get married at all. It is considered to be atavism. It means that men don't take responsibility for their wives and children, they don't want to share their property with anybody else. What will they take with them at their last moment? Money? Houses? Yachts? Nothing except their suit, socks and shoes. I'm happy that my husband trust me and I trust him in return. We are married in the Catholic church. But I have to pray for all those women who has no compassion, attention, trust, love from their cohabitants, who wasn't presented with the words: I wish I would stay with you the whole life whatever it could be: in happiness and hardships. I like all your drawbacks and all your merits. You are the only beautiful woman I admire. You are my joy, you were sent by God to me.
I'm very close to break down. I've been working as a practitioner teacher since the end of March. My students are adults from different countries and I have no problems with them though sometimes they cannot help telling me sharp words or preparing situations. But now I have the feeling that my monitor-teacher is trying to kick me out and do it in the very polite way by hinting me on going to the unemployment office. Very skillful teacher. The principal of the establishment told me I would have a job and I didn't really understand who was in charge in taking decisions. Sweden is a marvelous country with its own traditions and its own culture, the nature is unique. People adorable and don't let you interfere in their society so easily. The situation will be clarified on Monday.