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Jamtland, Sweden
I left everything behind: my country, friends, my lovely son and my dog. I fell in love and got married to a Swedish man. Now I'm in the middle of Sweden and that is what I think and feel. Everything I trust to my blog.

Sunday, 16 February 2020

A short review on the years 2016-2019. Long period of time. It´s a pity I haven´t been writing this time.
From the very beginning:
First time in my life I was invited to teach at the college. And again like in 2014 I was not able to say NO to the temporary job in the middle of my studies of Swedish at the University. Therefore I have not yet completed the education and haven´t got my last points to the teacher´s license in Swedish as the second language. t´s well known how difficult it is to study and work simultaneously. I should say well done anyway. Half a year passed as a dream. I enjoyed teaching at the same time there were some days when I was very tired and not able to do my job properly. 
The buss I took every morning was coming exactly to the beginning of the lessons and I was preparing my lessons sometimes in the buss, but it was also difficult because people like to talk during the trip. It gave me some pleasure in conversations but mostly irritation as I couldn´t concentrate me on my books. Besides, there were four women who were intriguing all the time against me. 
Imagine that during the lessons I was interrupted all the time. Yes, I was teaching Swedish as the second language and my colleague was correcting me all the time. I was so upset and not able to sum up my thoughts. That was the first one. The other one was a person from England. Strangely enough she came after his son who was employed as a teacher of English and was not able to explain the grammar. But that´s his problem. The fact is that I was given a chance to teach instead of him, but immediatelly came the mother and I was dismissed. Once I was entering the techers´room and heard the words: "I don´t want the stranger teach my son". That was everything one can say to shut down the unwanted teacher. But I was teaching English and Swedish to the young immigrants so that was ok for me. 
Once I started teaching just Swedish as a summer job. I bless the principle for that, but there was also a problem. One of my colleagues started shout at me to show her my contract. She would like to know how much do I have per month. So rude. I haven´t thought of the consequences and showed her. She became furious and I haven´t got even that job as a result.
At the beginning of the next year, 2017, I started as a teacher at school. For that I came the long way by buss again, but that time I was not studying. I had a cat, sphynx which I gave the name Beauty.
I´ll write furthur tomorrow if I am not tired.


Wednesday, 23 November 2016

2016

I stopped publishing on my blogg. I was trying to concentrate on my language studies. But now I have realised I had to give it another trial. Everything was turned up to be so difficult so I had to stop and just contemplate on what had happened.
I am mostly relaxed now and move ahead with my life. Let me figure out what I have by now.

I became a grandmother as my son got a son with his wife. I was at their wedding. I will show the pictures later. It all sounds great besides the fact that I live in Sweden and they live in Belarus. I skype with them. Thanks God and those people who had a good idea to create it. I don't complain, but I haven't this holy closeness between mother and child (my son) and grandmother and a grandson. I live alone and strive for my well being alone.

I must though give credit to my friends who supported me all this time. They visited me, they invited me to visit them, they took me for a ride sometimes to pick up berries and mushrooms or to celebrate something with their relatives. Gradually I forgot my pain after divorce and strange situation in which I appeared. Everything is changing: all the situations, times and people around.

I was just accepting the help of my friends from the beginning, but now I am able to help people around me. It is obvious that I am getting better.

Yes, I am unemployed right now, but I really don't care about this. I help people anyway. I help a Muslim man that got a deadly disease and dying every day without a hope for better. I help other newcomers to get a language (Swedish). In that case I get my benefit in coping with my mistakes. I treat my language with fresh water of repetition.

Unfortunately, I have a bad habit of buying flowers, even trees like araukaria and fur tree or Christmas tree, but they grow very slowly. I am lucky that the shops don't sell baobab, otherwise it will grow in my living room.

Having green fingers is not a privilege, it is a hard work and very often waste of money. But I call it investment in my future. Who knows, maybe my children will come to me and settle down in Sweden. I pray for it to become true.
 So, what will happened to my University studies? The teachers demand from me to be as correct as the best Swedish encyclopedia. Well, I know that not every Swede is that correct. But I don't argue anymore. They want to form me as a Swede, I just try it every day. I believe I have never been Belorussian or Russian or Polish or Ukranian. I have always been myself and mostly Cosmopolitan. I don't belong to any society with their rules, but I live in the EU society. I am free to choose what I can or cannot do, what I agree with and what is against my consciens. I have mostly completed my tasks on the Earth. Just a little bit left. But it is late in the night. It's time to go to sleep. See you tomorrow.

2016

I stopped publishing on my blogg. I was trying to concentrate on my language studies. But now I have realised I had to give it another trial. Everything was turned up to be so difficult so I had to stop and just contemplate on what had happened.
I am mostly relaxed now and move ahead with my life. Let me figure out what I have by now.

I became a grandmother as my son got a son with his wife. I was at their wedding. I will show the pictures later. It all sounds great besides the fact that I live in Sweden and they live in Belarus. I skype with them. Thanks God and those people who had a good idea to create it. I don't complain, but I haven't this holy closeness between mother and child (my son) and grandmother and a grandson. I live alone and strive for my well being alone.

I must though give credit to my friends who supported me all this time. They visited me, they invited me to visit them, they took me for a ride sometimes to pick up berries and mushrooms or to celebrate something with their relatives. Gradually I forgot my pain after divorce and strange situation in which I appeared. Everything is changing: all the situations, times and people around.

I was just accepting the help of my friends from the beginning, but now I am able to help people around me. It is obvious that I am getting better.

Yes, I am unemployed right now, but I really don't care about this. I help people anyway. I help a Muslim man that got a deadly disease and dying every day without a hope for better. I help other newcomers to get a language (Swedish). In that case I get my benefit in coping with my mistakes. I treat my language with fresh water of repetition.

Unfortunately, I have a bad habit to buy flowers, even trees like araukaria and fur tree or Christmas tree, but they grow very slowly. I am lucky that the shops don't sell baobab, otherwise it will grow in my living room.

Having green fingers is not a privilege, it is hard work and very often waste of money. But I call it investigation in my future. Who knows, maybe my children will come to me and settle down in Sweden. I pray for it to become true.
 So, what will happened to my University studies? The teachers demand from me to be as correct as the best Swedish encyclopedia. Well, I know that not every Swede is that correct. But I don't argue anymore. They want to form me as a Swede, I just try it every day. I believe I have never been Belorussian or Russian or Polish or Ukranian. I have always been myself and mostly Cosmopolitan. I don't belong to any society with their rules, but I live in the EU society. I am free to choose what I can or cannot do, what I agree with and what is against my consciens. I have mostly completed my tasks on the Earth. Just a little bit left. But it is late in the night. It's time to go to sleep. See you tomorrow.